W00t, being back is great. How I missed this site. A little place of my own on the web. Doesn't matter if no one else comes and visits, this is my space, and I'm so happy to have it back. :-)

So I never really planned on admitting that I had OCD on here, but it's nothing to be ashamed of. I've just been doing alot of research on the subject, and I'm noticing that I'm not the only one.

My husband (the wonderful man that he is) has been my crutch for awhile now. (Thank you ;-))Anyways, he bought me Brain Lock by Jeffrey M. Schwartz. I'm halfway through it. So far so good. It's a pretty amazing book. I am getting better, but I know it's going to be awhile before I'm anything close to what I was a couple of years ago.

Friday at work I recieved a cute little basket of flowers from some happy customers. W00t!! To anyone I processed a loan for, feel free to send me flowers daily :-) Really perks a girl up. I also bought Fuscia's. Very beautiful flowers. The place I bought them from had fantastic employees. All very helpful, and one even gave me a free hanging basket.

Well, I'm done for now, have nothing else to talk about.

So I've been thinking lately of maybe posting some of the things I've written. They're not finished, hell I don't even have the first chapter done, but, you know, this is something I've always wanted to do. Read more

This is what came up for a personal profile done by picking colors... Read more

It's been awhile since I posted anything personal. It's hard to maintain a life outside of working, to do anything that challenges the brain after working 8 sometimes 11 hours a day. Now, you'll find me mostly vegged out in front of Puzzle Pirates. Sad, I know, but I've resolved to try to not take work so seriously while I'm here, and take little breaks to keep myself from becoming to stressed out. So, in the spirit of living life while being a slave, I did a little browsing and found this on lifehacker.com.

I had fun browsing the user comments and seeing what others repeat in their head for motivation. It got me thinking about a song that was played in the late 80's early 90's. This song will pop up in my head, and just hearing these lines will perk me up, and have me feeling like I can take on the world. What are the lyrics you readers are asking? Well I'll tell you, but no laughing...

"Nobody gonna break my spine,
Nobody gonna hold me down, oh no, I got to keep on moving!"

So this has me interested in what everyone else does to get them ready to take on the world? Is it a mantra, song, quote, or an image? User comments is open if you want to share.

Recently I was watching this show about a guy who was putting himself through college. This guy looked more at home chugging beers, in the woods, listening to either country or Korn. Anyways, he was talking to a counselor about his plans, when the counselor says something to the effects of how he should be proud of himself, he's accomplished a lot, and to keep going on this track. The guy basically responded with, "What's the point, I have no family to support me? To back me up?" My heart broke for him. The counselor asks when was the last time he saw his mother. Then asks when was the last time he saw his dad. This is where my sympathy died, and I turned the channel. I'm not a cold hearted bitch, but the guy replies. "It's been so long, I can't remember. I don't know, maybe two months." What!? Two months! I haven't seen my father in about two years. Two fucking years. Granted my father and I haven't been close these last couple of years, but does that really matter? To some degree I guess it does, but a parent, despite the fact that the child might not necessarily contact them on a regular basis, should always be in your life. I mean right now, I'm sitting here wondering about the possibilities of my dad being dead. Ouch, right? Read more

You are now reading a Loan Processors blog. That's right, I got a promotion!! I might be losing my office, but hey I should hopefully, maybe, quite possibly be making more money (hopefully). My training won't start until the beginning of the New Year, so wish me luck that I or anyone else won't jack this up.

So I have finally decided what to do with BeautifullyDark. It feels wonderful to have a plan, a course of action. Want to know what it's going to be? Not telling you. You'll have to wait until it's finished. Although I will say that it is something I have been thinking of doing for a while.

Seriously, if your commercial is cute, I will purchase your stuff. If I needed glasses, I would go to Pearl Vision. How can you not? They have one of the greatest songs playing in the background. T-Mobile will be one of my first choices for a cell phone, because now I have the chance to put Frylock on as my background.

Confession time. Read more

What to do? What to do? I have a site that no one visits. Hell, I feel bogged down just looking at it. It's completely morphed into something that it shouldn't be. How it became an adolescent bitch hut is beyond me. Read more